sixteen

I cannot believe I haven't posted since Saturday!! Woops!

Anyway, today was weigh-in day at WW and I lost 1.2lbs.. I'm happy that I lost, I really am.. I was just hoping for like 2 or 3 for my kick off. 1.2lbs is wonderful otherwise. At least I lost.

My goal is to lose 10 lbs in the next five weeks. I'm off from school, I'm going to follow WW exactly and work out like twice a day! Better, actually.. I don't usually finish my points.. I'm just going to have to be really careful because the holidays. This week, I had a departmental Christmas party, a cookie making party, and a birthday party. This weekend I have a birthday party (that I am NOT really feeling), and my friends want to go out to Stamford (which is getting a big fat NO from me. Do not want).

Tomorrow I have my last final.. I have yet to study for. I'll work on it. I moved out of school today which was thrilling. I'm so happy to be home for the next two (and a half years). My move out date has been set for sometime in March-May 2012. I'm not OCD I swear. I'm soooo excited to be done.

Anywho, I've been keeping up with people on Facebook (stalking people on Facebook) and I can't wait to start with freaking nursing already! I'm getting jealous of people who have. Like seriously jealous. Ugh there is nothing I can do. It will be good to have some time at WCC though.. maybe I'll meet some new people there.. not be surrounded by tons of females all the time (as an ARH major, and soon to be nursing student, you see a lot of them).

I guess this update will suffice for now. I'll do it more, promise.

fifteen

I did NOT eat well today. I don't think I went over my points, but I should be better considering I'm so new at this.

Yesterday was my last day of classes and thats realllly exciting because I wish I was graduating this semester. I handed in my 26 page term paper with images and I actually felt confident about it. What a weird feeling! I have two finals left and I'm dunzo. We had the department holiday party last night too. It was fun, but I especially liked that I got to see another professor-house. It was pretty nice. We also got to meet her husband and that was EXCITING. I'm oddly fascinated by professorial spouses. I drove over there leading the Art History convoy which I think is pretty hilarious. I took my mom's car with GPS and relied on calling a friend to get us all there, but it worked.

So today we had a cookie party with my cousins. I made so many cookies (and ate so much dough). I'm exhausted! I kind of enjoy cooking and baking though. Hope this isn't a phase. It was actually a lot of fun. My cousins are a lot of fun though, so that helped.

I was looking on allnurses.com about Pace ABSN and I am so nervous I wont get in. I should, but I'm nervous. I can't wait to get started... Exactly one year.

fourteen

I went to WW yesterday. I was about 10lbs less than I was afraid, so that's pretty good. I'm still about five lbs heavier than I was WHEN I STARTED when I was sixteen. Yikes.

Tomorrow I have to hand in my big term paper. I have to finish it tonight... Ugh it's almost midnight and I have about two hours of work to do... Why do I procrastinate like this?

Tomorrow is also the department party. That'll be fun.. or something. Just felt like updating.

thirteen

Lucky.

So oh my God, I have to hand in some paper corrections tomorrow and I'm all anxious about it. This paper has HAUNTED me for a year now.. I wrote it last year, and it was terrible, so for our Major Seminar I had to fix it up and present it... I kind of did the presentation (hysterically crying the entire night before) and right now I have to finish the corrections. Why I can't bring myself to do this I'll never know. I am literally afraid of this paper. Literally. In my best Rachel Zoe voice, literally.

I have the TV on in the background.. who told Jay Leno he was funny? He is not funny.

I'm going to WW tomorrow. I'm pretty nervous about that too. I'm going to be really heavy.. ugh fo sho. The upside to that is my first week back on the plan will put me at like a 5 lb kick start, which will be really positive. I just have to face this fear, it's my own fault in the first place. I have so much weight to lose.. I am afraid of everything.

Yesterday, I went to my room at school and my name tag was ripped off my door. Someone is harboring some pleasant feelings for me. I sent my roommate a dick text saying it was bullshit.. old roommate who hates me was just sitting there being cold and amazonian. If it isn't obvious I'm not welcome there. I know me staying home so much looks like I'm hiding from the axis of bitchy, but I'm just so much happier here, and I don't think their drama and problems and anger are worth my feelings.

And yeah, this post is filled with anxiety. Maybe I'll feel better about everything tomorrow.

twelve

This is a followup.

Last night my brother came home from CONIS with two friends to sleep in the warmth. They had it at Donald Trump Park, next to FDR Park in Ytown, so he drove on over. I had an impromptu sleepover (haha) with his female friend who happened to be nice. Thankfully. Could have been super awkward. She slept in the pull out in my room, and his male friend slept in the pull out in his room. My mom made them grilled cheese and hot chocolate. Go figure. Adorable.

Also, if you're wondering why I'm posting on 11:45 on a Saturday, it's because it's snowing outside. Also, I probably wouldn't have gone out any way... I'm lame. I didn't go out last night either. This is probably going to be how I make all my friends in life. By staying home and playing around on my computer. I feel lame, I get it... I'll change. One day.

I am well aware that my social life is lacking in the most severe ways and I understand the effects this is having on my life in the present and the effects it will have in the future. FML.

eleven

Ok, so I've been having issues with my computer - it keeps telling me the disk is full and I have been fuh-reaking out. Well, as it turns out this has to do with the fact that I have a redic amount of tv shows on my itunes. I almost deleted seasons one and two of Battelstar Galactica, but didn't. THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS WRONG WITH THAT: 1) I own seasons one and two of BG, 2) I paid for seasons one and two of BG, 3) I can't bring myself to delete them! I haven't even finished the series... I can't bring my self to do it at all. It's a guilty pleasure, I can't help it, not at all.

I also downloaded a Switchfoot cd today. What? I don't know. I loved them in HS, and I heard something today and couldn't help but get the cd. It just put me in a happy place. It's funny... I like all this safe stuff today. I mean I watch Grey's Anatomy like every other female between 18 and 49 and my last two cds (before Switchfoot) were John Mayer's new one and Graceland by Paul Simon.. I'm safe (I love Coldplay, I shop at J.Crew, I drive a Toyota for heaven's sake..sorry). Sometimes I don't want to be safe, I want to be happy. I want to smile... I want to get that guilty pleasure feeling in the belly that Romantic Comedies and Demi Lovato CDs give me.

If it makes me happy can it be all that bad? I know you can't please 100% of the people 100% of the time, but I'm pretty sure the only people I can talk to about pop-culture are 15 year olds, Dwight Schrute, and the occasional frat boy. My God.

ten

Today's High:

One more week of classes! Then two finals and dunzo until January 25th! Win.

Today's Low:

I hate a pint of Neapolitan Ice Cream yesterday. Poor, poor choice.




I really need to lose weight. I want to I want to I want to! I guess I should really get that WW monthly pass. I know that's the place that can help me.

nine

MY PRESENTATION WENT SO WELL. That never happens! It was crazy, I didn't even need the notes at the end. Insanity. After I presented, I came home and relaxed here. I went back to school at like 10 because I had a trip this morning. We went down to the MMA and then over to MOBiA. Both interesting, but it was a long day. We left at 7:45 and didn't get back until 4. I got home at 5. I know people have longer days, but I've been going on four hours of sleep a night for the last week. Tomorrow I have to be up at about 8 to get to work at 10, then I have class, then work again till 5. I have to do a paper (5 pages), corrections on 3 other papers, and type up an interview to present to the class for 10 minutes. All of this is due next week, ranging between Monday and Wednesday. Then, have to study for two finals, and THEN IM DONE.

So with that out of the way, I'm so tired. I understand this is boring.