thirteen

Lucky.

So oh my God, I have to hand in some paper corrections tomorrow and I'm all anxious about it. This paper has HAUNTED me for a year now.. I wrote it last year, and it was terrible, so for our Major Seminar I had to fix it up and present it... I kind of did the presentation (hysterically crying the entire night before) and right now I have to finish the corrections. Why I can't bring myself to do this I'll never know. I am literally afraid of this paper. Literally. In my best Rachel Zoe voice, literally.

I have the TV on in the background.. who told Jay Leno he was funny? He is not funny.

I'm going to WW tomorrow. I'm pretty nervous about that too. I'm going to be really heavy.. ugh fo sho. The upside to that is my first week back on the plan will put me at like a 5 lb kick start, which will be really positive. I just have to face this fear, it's my own fault in the first place. I have so much weight to lose.. I am afraid of everything.

Yesterday, I went to my room at school and my name tag was ripped off my door. Someone is harboring some pleasant feelings for me. I sent my roommate a dick text saying it was bullshit.. old roommate who hates me was just sitting there being cold and amazonian. If it isn't obvious I'm not welcome there. I know me staying home so much looks like I'm hiding from the axis of bitchy, but I'm just so much happier here, and I don't think their drama and problems and anger are worth my feelings.

And yeah, this post is filled with anxiety. Maybe I'll feel better about everything tomorrow.